God will provide

I remember in high school seeing all of the girls dressing in crop tops and tight jeans, and short shorts, encouraged me into dressing more provocative. Because when we go back to our childhood the sexual nature that lives within us was once showed to us at a young age.

The first time I had ever watched porn was when I was 8! My first sexual experience was with a girl at 6, and then at 12 with other girls. I often wonder why the first sign of maturity for a minor is their sexuality (puberty) Yes sometimes as kids we were just curious but that is something that we were taught maybe by hearing an adult conversation, or being exposed.

But no matter what the root is sex is not bad but sex without being married will literally destroy your life every time you do it. Spiritually, and mentally because you are taking on that persons energy that’s suppose to be shared in a marriage.

Now we start to gather these soul-ties which is much harder to break because your body craves that person and it might not be just sexually but spiritually. And when you breakup especially for a woman it’s hard to get over it fast like men can because we are emotionally wired.

I am still learning boundaries and not letting the safety of having a man protecting me, lead me astray from what’s right. And I think a lot of us women want that the safety of a man to protect us because we didn’t have that as children.

And there’s nothing wrong with it but every time we look for the security we will get disappointed because our hearts run to what’s familiar and not what you need. We need a man to be the part not play it.

And I’m realizing that the men that play the good women never come with flowers, dates, clarity, but only with words. And some do put on a show just to get you comfortable.

But that’s why the Bible says to guard your heart, and to not awaken love before its time.

And a lot of the things we do with the men who aren’t for us, a real man would never go for.